Looking Ahead

The decision to move forward and leave behind what was comfortable was one of hardest I’ve ever made. Complacency had become my friend. I was so terrified of the unknown that I would have rather been miserable.

Last week I hit my rock bottom and found myself in a very dark place. I was lost, confused, heart-broken and without hope. Days were spent agonizing over decisions that had been made and thinking about what should or could have happened. It felt like I had reached my limit.

Then I realized that I literally had nothing to lose. There were no obligations tied to me anymore, I was truly free. It was with that small thought in my head that I slowly began to crawl out of that dark place. I keep telling myself that the hardest decisions had already been made, that the heart ache had already been felt.

I know the path ahead will be filled with potholes and detours. It will truly be a lesson on enjoying the journey along the way.

So it is with mixed emotions that I look ahead at what’s to come.

Self Discovery

Over the past year it seems as though I've lost myself.  My passion, creativity and confidence have all disappeared. I feel as though I no longer know who I am. I have started on a journey of self-discovery. As part of this journey I have decided to take a self-portrait once a week to capture where I am on my path. It will represent what I have (or haven’t) found out about myself that week and my thoughts and feelings on this process in general. I hope that in time I will not only rediscover myself but also my love and passion for photography.

So I’m officially taking this opportunity to say this red headed bitch is back with a vengeance!

Here is my first portrait, capturing the beginning of this journey. I won't lie, I'm terrified but I'm also curious and excited to see what the future will hold.