Bird by Bird

It took a little longer than expected but here is part 2 of my post about turning 30. 

On the other side of 30 and I’m doing my best to push aside the trepidation and fear. Instead I’m focusing on the positive and exciting things that are to come. Many people have said they find their 30s one of the best time of their lives. I’m hoping this will be true.

A co-worker had written in my birthday card that your 20s are for goofing around, your 30s are for wisdom, and the best is yet to come. A simple sentiment perhaps but there’s comfort to be found in those words. There’s also insight. It helped me realize why turning 30 was so scary; it’s at this time that you really start asking yourself the bigger questions such as “Who am I?” “Where am I going?” and “What am I doing with my life?”

Though I am still working to answer many of these questions I am also making sure that I don’t look past my own accomplishments and self-growth that I’ve achieved over the past few months. Right now my goal is to continue to strive to live in the moment and grow as an individual, and just take it bird by bird. 

In case you can’t read the journal entry it says:

I can see a little clearer and I feel slightly closer to my destiny. I need to make something of myself. I need to do something big. For my whole life I’ve been playing an insignificant part but now it’s time to change my role. It’s amazing how everything can change. It’s like I was asleep for years and I’m finally awakening to the possibilities in the world around me. I’m tasting happiness again. Can it really be like this? Can it be more than just a cookie? In the past there’s been so much conflict within myself but this is different. To my heart it seems so simple and clear. To my heart it feels like breathing.