Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Cracks

Vulnerability- I use to think it was a bad trait, that it made me weak. However, over this past month I've come to realize it’s not such a bad thing. The fact that we open ourselves up to be hurt and rejected takes a huge amount of courage. It’s even more courageous if we've been hurt in the past as we already know the pain that’s in store if we fail. And if I've learned anything it’s no matter how much heartache and rejection you may experience, it sure does not make it any easier.

I am proud of my vulnerability. I have failed a lot and I have been hurt a lot yet I still continue to open myself up and try. Every failure or rejection is like a crack but I wear them like a badge of courage. I've recognized the need to take time and patch myself back up. The cracks and chips may still be there but once the pain ebbs away what’s left is insight. All this by no means makes it any easier to put my heart on the line but it helps me have faith that one day the risk will pay off.


When I get old and gray, I may look back on my life and see a lot of heartache and failure but I’ll also see that I put myself out there and tried as much as possible. At least I won’t sit and wonder “what if?” and “what would have happened?” It’s better to try and fail then to not try at all. 


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